I Don’t Know How

June 17, 2022

I don’t know how to do it. I wrote a book, and I have done what I could do. I had been working on my book for a long time. In 2010 God spoke to me. His words were, “Finish your book” I said to Him, “How am I supposed to do that?” God said, “Stop asking me how…just do it.” I said, “Okay.” You would think I would have gotten right to it, and I did for a while, but then I lost my confidence. The writing part was easy, almost like automatic writing, but the editing and how to get it published were beyond what I knew how to do. So, I put my book on the back burner. Then one day I went to a garage sale and the owner of the house was a published author. I asked him if he would like to help me with my book. He said to send him the first chapter and he would decide. After buying a copy of one of his books I pretty much ran to the car to get home. I brought the first chapter of my book to the author that afternoon. About two weeks later he phoned and said, “Yes I will help you.” I spent some time with him, and we spent some time with my book. I paid him as we went along. After a while I decided that his changes were changing the book from sounding like my book to sounding like his book. I finished paying him deciding this was not going to work. I walked back to my car and being discouraged slowly drove back home. My husband said, he would help me check for spelling and grammatical errors. We worked on it for a couple of months. He did not try to rewrite my book, but together we cleaned it up. We are not professionals. My husband told me if we did not finish editing soon, he would not be able to help me anymore. He was right, because for the next six months the cancer in his body became fatal and he died on April 30, 2021. Anyway, in June sometime, I revisited my story. I finished editing it before I moved back to New Jersey on October 5, 2021. Then I hit a roadblock again…what do I do now? God told me in 2010 to finish my book. It is now 2022. What is wrong with this picture? So, if anyone who is reading my blog could help me get my words in print. I would very much appreciate it. Like I said, “I don’t know how to do it. I believe in life if there is a problem, with help there can be a solution. Thank you.

Granny-o